Its 2:34 am as I'm writing this.

Alcohol running through my veins. I'm the most honest in this hour. What do I feel? I feel unhappy. I feel sad. I feel unsatisfied. This life is so cruel. How do people deal with these emotions I'm going through. I know I'm not the only one. I feel as if nobody understands me; what I'm going through. Is it depression? Is it my bi-polarness coming through? No one will ever know. Not even myself.

Inspiration Pt. 1

Rachel Khoo - The Little Paris Kitchen. A definitely must watch for cooking recipes and pastries. Her tiny kitchen in her studio flat is just adorable. Something I could see myself having and not minding. I'll be watching more of her and others from now on.

A to Z

A. Available: Everyday now that I've quit my job

B. Birthday: September 14, 1995
C. Crushing on: James Franco
D. Drink you last had: Apple juice, can I say that?
E. Easiest person to talk to: Tomund
F. Favorite song: Whitney Houston - Try It On My Own
G. Grossest memory: Can't think of any ATM
H. Hometown: Fresno
I. In love with: Tomund
J. Jealous of: people who don't have to take student loans
K. Killed someone: with kindness
L. Longest friendship: 16 years 
M. Milkshake flavour: I don't drink milkshake
N. Number of siblings: Six. 5 brothers, 1 sister.
O. One wish: To be happy
P. Person who you last called: My brother Lai
Q. Question you're asked the most: Is that your real eye color?
R. Reason to smile: I'm still alive
S. Song you last sang: Jimmy Ruffin - What Becomes of the Broken Hearted
T. Time you wake up: Roughly 9am before mama goes to work
U. Underwear color: Black & white
V. Violent moment: Can't recall
W. Worst habit: Making my bed even when I'm running late. 
X. X-ray you had: Can't recall
Y. Your last time you cried: Last week to myself about life.
Z. Zodiac sign: Virgo

Miss Grumpy's First Pumpkin Patch

Sissy is always home. She doesn't get exposed to the outside world that often so I try to take her out more. She is often scared, shy and grumpy in public, like today. Its okay. I tell myself she's only 2 so she still have plenty of time to grow and get comfortable in the public.