You grow up thinking

you'll be happy with everything in your life by now but truth be told, its gonna take some hard work. You're gonna go through many ups and downs. To be happy starts with yourself.. so lets work hard for our dreams to come true. May the universe bring me positivity and happiness only.

Surprise from him

It's the little things you do to show your love and affection for me. I love you sweetie <3

I got out of work and found this rose on my car window. I looked around and he was staring back at me hehe. So sweet!!

Forever Thankful for this Man Right Here

Before this man came into my life, I was going through many phases. I was about to make a big move to college and was curious as to what more the world had to offer me. I had went through many hardships with my family and didn't know where I was going spiritually. I've never met someone who's always so honest, patient, supportive, respectful and loving like him. I'm always changing and he supports my views nonetheless. It feels so nice to love someone who loves you back and not afraid to show it back. I love you Tomund Phen-Xu Lee. I thank God for blessing me with this imperfectly perfect human at a time I needed the most. Amazing how the most wonderful things come into your life when you are least expecting it.

Its 2:34 am as I'm writing this.

Alcohol running through my veins. I'm the most honest in this hour. What do I feel? I feel unhappy. I feel sad. I feel unsatisfied. This life is so cruel. How do people deal with these emotions I'm going through. I know I'm not the only one. I feel as if nobody understands me; what I'm going through. Is it depression? Is it my bi-polarness coming through? No one will ever know. Not even myself.

Inspiration Pt. 1

Rachel Khoo - The Little Paris Kitchen. A definitely must watch for cooking recipes and pastries. Her tiny kitchen in her studio flat is just adorable. Something I could see myself having and not minding. I'll be watching more of her and others from now on.

A to Z

A. Available: Everyday now that I've quit my job

B. Birthday: September 14, 1995
C. Crushing on: James Franco
D. Drink you last had: Apple juice, can I say that?
E. Easiest person to talk to: Tomund
F. Favorite song: Whitney Houston - Try It On My Own
G. Grossest memory: Can't think of any ATM
H. Hometown: Fresno
I. In love with: Tomund
J. Jealous of: people who don't have to take student loans
K. Killed someone: with kindness
L. Longest friendship: 16 years 
M. Milkshake flavour: I don't drink milkshake
N. Number of siblings: Six. 5 brothers, 1 sister.
O. One wish: To be happy
P. Person who you last called: My brother Lai
Q. Question you're asked the most: Is that your real eye color?
R. Reason to smile: I'm still alive
S. Song you last sang: Jimmy Ruffin - What Becomes of the Broken Hearted
T. Time you wake up: Roughly 9am before mama goes to work
U. Underwear color: Black & white
V. Violent moment: Can't recall
W. Worst habit: Making my bed even when I'm running late. 
X. X-ray you had: Can't recall
Y. Your last time you cried: Last week to myself about life.
Z. Zodiac sign: Virgo

Miss Grumpy's First Pumpkin Patch

Sissy is always home. She doesn't get exposed to the outside world that often so I try to take her out more. She is often scared, shy and grumpy in public, like today. Its okay. I tell myself she's only 2 so she still have plenty of time to grow and get comfortable in the public.