Seeing a Shooting Star for the 1st Time

It was approximately 2am and Tomund and I were going home. We were discussing about jobs and I was thinking to myself what am I going to do with my life. I'm jobless and as the days goes by, I'm only gonna be running out of money. I'm content right now but I know I should be getting a job so I can have income and something to do during the daytime. Out of nowhere a light flashes right before our eyes. It was a shooting star! It was so fast yet slow enough where you can see the tail. I was getting teary and emotional because it was so ironic that we saw a shooting star when we were discussing what I'll be doing with my life. I quickly made a wish. I was just so shocked and it was truly one of the most beautiful things I'd seen. It reminded me to never stop wishing and just go for my dreams. If anyone is reading this, then you should too. Much love.

Quitting my Job

A few weeks ago, I did one of the bravest thing I thought I wouldn't be able to do: quitting my job. I was working 6 days out of the week as a full time nail technician and let's be honest, I was miserable. Money was good, however, it was long hours and I often wondered if it was all worth it. The worst days were being stuck at work when everyone was spending time with their loved ones or enjoying their hobbies. Work on a good weather seemed gloomy to me because I couldn't be outside to enjoy it. As weeks gone by, I often found myself depressed and anxious before going in to work. That was the moment I knew I should quit soon before I had a breakdown.

Quitting my job was the scariest and bravest thing I've yet to encounter this year. The moment I quit, life everyday all a sudden became colorful. I was able to take care of myself more than ever. I started to get back into my fitness routine, eat healthier food and being smarter where my money was going towards. I also had more time to enjoy my hobbies such as scrapbooking, blogging, vlogging, and learning to cook. This is my time to do me. Until the day I have to find a new job, I now know better to find a job I will actually enjoy and love to do. Peace to all. I hope you have a wonderful day.

We're the Lucky Ones

Wow. It has been 3 and a half years with this guy right here and I feel totally blessed to be with someone so respectful, kind, caring, and gentlemen-like. I'm so lucky to be able to call him my love for I have done nothing to deserve this. I've made many mistakes and mistreated him from time to time but he returned kindness, patience and more love every time. He opened my eyes to let go and let love happen... like all of my love to be show through. People may think we're too lovey dovey but its okay because we're just being ourselves. I'm in love with my best friend who knows the best of me and wants to be there when I'm at my lowest. Tomund is the first and last person I talk to at the end of the day and most comfortable around with, which I shall not take advantage. I know he'll never stop trying and loving me and I feel so safe with that fact. Besides my parents, I've never seen a person give so much of their love and appreciation to me than him. We are truly the lucky ones. One of our many songs because he plays it for me all the time since we've started dating. It perfectly describes him and our relationship. <3 I truly love you so much handsome :)

You grow up thinking

you'll be happy with everything in your life by now but truth be told, its gonna take some hard work. You're gonna go through many ups and downs. To be happy starts with yourself.. so lets work hard for our dreams to come true. May the universe bring me positivity and happiness only.

Surprise from him

It's the little things you do to show your love and affection for me. I love you sweetie <3

I got out of work and found this rose on my car window. I looked around and he was staring back at me hehe. So sweet!!

Forever Thankful for this Man Right Here

Before this man came into my life, I was going through many phases. I was about to make a big move to college and was curious as to what more the world had to offer me. I had went through many hardships with my family and didn't know where I was going spiritually. I've never met someone who's always so honest, patient, supportive, respectful and loving like him. I'm always changing and he supports my views nonetheless. It feels so nice to love someone who loves you back and not afraid to show it back. I love you Tomund Phen-Xu Lee. I thank God for blessing me with this imperfectly perfect human at a time I needed the most. Amazing how the most wonderful things come into your life when you are least expecting it.

Its 2:34 am as I'm writing this.

Alcohol running through my veins. I'm the most honest in this hour. What do I feel? I feel unhappy. I feel sad. I feel unsatisfied. This life is so cruel. How do people deal with these emotions I'm going through. I know I'm not the only one. I feel as if nobody understands me; what I'm going through. Is it depression? Is it my bi-polarness coming through? No one will ever know. Not even myself.